I Lost My Own Love As a Result of My Own Faults - Kavinga Perera

uf.au wvq mdvqjla ksid uf.a wdof¾ ke;sjqKd - ldúx. fmf¾rd

fï Èkj, úldYh jk ‘W;=ï me;=ï’" ‘wdor oEila’" ‘mdrd j<¨‍’ fg,s kdgHhkays m%Odk pß; lsysmhlgu mK fmdjñka ckm%sh k¿jl= f,i ldúx. fmf¾rd fma%laIlhka w;r l;dnyg ,laj isákjd' ldúx.f.a kj;u l,d f;dr;=re ms<sn| úuid n,kakg wms lghq;= lf<a ta ksihs'
rx.k lghq;= w;r;=r Tyq wm yd l;dnyg tlajQfha fuf,ihs'

fï ojiaj, Tfí l,d lghq;= fudk jf.a o@

‘wdor oEila’ iy ‘W;=ï me;=ï’ fg,s kdgH foflau rE.; lsÍï isÿ

lrkjd' Bg wu;rj ‘mdrd j<¨‍’ fg,s kdgHfha rE.; lsÍï isÿ lrkjd'

rx.k Ys,amsfhla f,i lghq;= lrkak ,eîu .ek fudlo ys;kafk@

f.dvla i;=gqhs' ldgj;a yïn fjkafk ke;s foaj,a fï lafIa;%fha lghq;= lr;a§ wmsg yïn fj,d ;sfnkjd' iudcfha f,dl= ms<s.ekSula ;sfnkjd' ta .ek fm!oa.,slj i;=gq fjkjd'

l,d lafIa;%h .ek Tn ys;kafka l=ula o@

wo lafIa;%h .ek l,lsÍula ke;=ju;a fkdfõ' wo yqÕ fofkla fï lafIa;%hg tkak n,df.k bkakjd' uu ta whg lshkafk keye tkak tmhs lsh,d' uu yß wdihs wfmka miafi fï lafIa;%h ljqreyß ndr .kakjd kï' ta ndr .kak ´k yß úÈyg lshk ;ek uu bkakjd' fudlo f.dvla wh fï lafIa;%hg weú,a,d jeä ld,hla /‍fËkafk keye' tlaflda ckm%sh fj,d ;ukaf.a fm!oa.,sl ldrKd bIag lrf.k gla .d,d hkjd'

uu lshkafka tkak" fï lafIa;%hg" fï lafIa;%h f,dl= oekqï iïNdrhla ;sfnk ;ekla' iudch .ek" mqoa.,hka .ek Tjqkaf.a l%shd l,dm .ek f.dvdla foaj,a bf.k .kak mq¿jka f,dl= úYaj úoHd,hla ;uhs fï rx. N+ñh lshkafka' ta N+ñhg tkjkï yßhg fohla bf.k f.k tkak lsh,d uu lshkjd' túg lafIa;%fha ;udf.a fomhska keÕS isàug yelshdj ,efnkjd'

Tng ,efnk fma%laIl m%;spdr fudk jf.a o@

fma%laIlhka f.ka úúO m%;spdr ,efnkjd' úúO wh úúO u; bÈßm;a lrkjd' ug f.dvdla ,smsj,ska flá m‚úvj,ska m%;spdr ,efnkjd' ta whg ug yels fj,djg uu ms<s;=re fokjd'

kj mrmqf¾ k¿jka Tng wNsfhda.hla fkfuhs o@

ug wNsfhda.hla fjkafka udj' ug udj wNsfhda.hla lr.kak ;rug ug wfkla wh;a iuÕ .efgkak jqjukdjla keye' wOHlaIjrfhla fyda msgm;a rplhl= udj f;dard.kafka uf.ka f,dl= fohla lr.kak mq¿jka lshk n,dfmdfrd;a;=fjka' ug ;sfhk tlu wNsfhda.h ;uhs udj ch.%yKh lr.ekSu' ug ÿka pß;h ch.%yKh lr .ekSu'

fï jk úg Tn fmïjf;la fkao@

uu oeka fmïjf;la fkfuhs' uu th ld,hdg ndr §, ;sfhkafk' úfYaIfhka uf.a wïug kx.sg' fudlo uu ld,hla fmïjf;la fj,d ysáhd' iuyr foaj,a foúhka jykafia f.a leue;a; wkqj isoaO fjkjd' isoaO fkdjk foaj¨‍;a ;sfhkjd' oekg uu uf.a wïujhs kx.sjhs n,df.k fyd¢ka Ôj;a fjkjd' biairyg fyd| flfkla yuqfjhs lshd ys;kjd'

újdy fjk ;rugu ÿr .sh wdorhla Tng ;snqKd fkao@

uu wdorh l<d flfklag' yoj;skau' f.dvla fyd¢ka" iuyrúg uf.a wvqmdvqjla yskaod tal ke;sjqKd' th uf.a wvqmdvqjla' uu je/Èldrhd fjkjd t;ek' uu je/Èldrhd ùu u; ta iïnkaOh ke;s jqfKa wef.a wkd.;fha fyd|g fjkak we;s'

<Õskau bkak ñ;=re ñ;=ßhka ljqo@

tfyu <Õskau wdY%h lrkak lsh,d ljqrej;a keye' uu lafIa;%fha yefudagu tl jf.a wdofrhs' uu f.dvdla .re lrk flfkla ;uhs ìu,a whshd' ^ìu,a chfldä& fudlo yeu fjf,au ug uf.a ifydaorfhla jf.a Tyq iuÕ yqÕdla foaj,a l;dny lr.kak mq¿jka' ta jf.au wu,a fmf¾rd' uf.a je/oaola wvqmdvqjla oelalu Tyq ug ta foa lshkjd'

Tfí úfkdaodxY fudkjd o@

Ñ;%mg n,k tl ;uhs uf.a úfkdaodxYh' tajd .fõIKh lrkak wdihs' .sgdrhla wrf.k iskaÿ lshkak wdihs'

rE.; lsÍïj,g .shyu fiÜ tfla whg whsial%Sï wrka fokj¨‍ fkao@

uu ta foa lrkafk yßu wdidfjka' fudlo uu lkfndk ukqiaifhla' ux wdi keye ;kshu lkak' uf.a wf;a ;sfhkafk remsh,a oyh o ta foa úhoï lr, yefudagu lkak fndkak wrka fokjd' yeufoagu jvd ug jákafka ukqiailu lshk tl' wmsg ,laI ishla yïn jqK;a wms uefrkfldg i;hlaj;a wrf.k hkafk keye' wms wrka hkafka ukqiailu ú;rhs' uu yß wdihs uf.;a tlal bkak fldg ñksiaiq yskdfj,d i;=áka bkakjg'

Tfí ukqiailu Tngu lrorhla jQ wjia:d we;s@

uf.a ukqiailu we;=f<a ñksiaiq f.dvdla udj m%fhdackhg .;a; wjia:d ;sfhkjd' ta mqoa.,hka ljqo lsh,;a uu okakjd' uu ldgj;a je/oaola lr,d keye' uu ldgj;a ffjr lr,d keye' ug mq¿jka úÈyg uu yefudagu Woõ lr,d ;sfhkjd' f.dvdla wh ux .ek ;eka ;ekaj, .syska fla<ï lshkjd' udj lmkak W;aidy lrkjd' ta;a ux ta ñksiaiq tlal wog;a l;dny lrkjd' ux ikaf;dafika bkakjd' ta uf.a ukqiailu ksihs'

Tn *eIka lrkjd o@

Tõ' uu uf.a we‍fÕa gegq tlla fldg,d ;sfhkjd' ug .e<fmk yßhk foaj,a uu lrkjd'

wdof¾ .ek Tn ys;kafka fldfydu o@

wdof¾ lshkafka i,a,s fkfuhs' i,a,s lshkafk;a wdof¾ fkfuhs' j¾;udk iudcfha f.dvla wdof¾ lshk foa ;SrKh jkafka fN!;sl isoaOdka;;a tlal' b;ska fN!;sl foaj,aj,ska f;dr jQ wdorhla §¾> ld,Skhs lshd uu ys;kjd'

flÈkl fyda Tn fmïj;shf.ka n,dfmdfrd;a;= fjk foa@

lido nÈkjd lshkafka ixialD;Ska folla tlg tl;= fjkjd lshk tl' th yßhg f;dard fírdf.k l< hq;= fohla' uu flfklag wdof¾ lrkjdkï wehg ud .ek oeksh hq;=hs' ud .ek weh wjfndaO lr.; hq;=hs' ta foahs uu wef.ka n,dfmdfrd;a;= fjkafk'

lafIa;%fha lgl;d" Tng;a yeÈ,d we;s@

lgl;d f.dvdla yeÈ,d ;sfhkjd' ug yeÈ, ;sfhk f,dl=u lgl;dj ;uhs ud;a tlal jev lrkak neye lshk tl' oekakï th ;rula ÿrg wvqhs' uf.;a tlal jev lrmq yeu wOHlaIjrfhlau uf.ka wykafka wehs Th;a tlal tfyu jev lrkak neye lsh,d fï úÈyg lgl;d m;=rejkafk lshk tl'